I Can't Stop This Now

Freakin' excited. Looking forward to next weekend.

Today has been a really good day. I have been at home and in town. Shopping. A pair of jeans that are, guess what colour.. Dark red. Love them ♥ Then I bought the rest of my next  semester's books. 

And what comes to yesterday, I bought a nail polish. Haha. 

 But the colour is somehow sparkling, neon-ish and purple. 

I've never had a so huge Oh my god-experience thanks to a nail polish colour. 

Mavala's Purple Sensation ♥

Tomorrow I have musical rehearsals in school. And on Monday  I have the geography test..

We'll see how that goes..

Have a nice weekend,

Haadi 

Caught Me There

All I want is you.. Agnes' songs playing non-stop in my head.
Maybe it's because of specific reasons.. I can't focus nor control my thoughts. 
Somehow I think it's not just me.. Going nuts.



Feeling sooooooooooo good right now!! I just have 2 tests left!! I've written 3 already!

Today I had my Maths test. I think it went okay, but I'm not sure.
And yesterday I wrote my Finnish test. It was so easy! 


Now I have a craving for shopping. I just want that cardigan from Gina I tested today.. And a black basic blazer.. Gaah..

After school today me, E, C and P went to town for coffee. Nice talking with them, haven't done it for a long time. 

we♥it

Soon dance,dance some hip hop and shake that body, oh yeah..

I'm Right In Front Of You

Oh.. I noticed today. That this Monday-dance is getting more difficult.. 

We've had 2 choreographies now and today we started doing the third.. And this one.. Is so much harder than the two before.. Holy my.. Okay. No stress.. No, no.. This is getting as hard as the hip hop I have on Thursdays.. And the one on Thursday is hard but you'll get it after a couple of weeks. 

Enough with this now.

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Now I just have 4 tests to go!!!

And today I wrote my German test. I was really easy, can't even believe it.. 

Next test is on Wednesday and that's Finnish. I hope that the test will be easy.

Good night,

Haadi

Cover Your Eyes So You Don't Know The Secret

This might sound really weird. 

But I have noticed that by everyday life gets more fun and better when I think about good things and don't think about those crappy things that sometimes jumps out of my mouth because I can't keep everything inside and then I will explode and everyone thinks I'm annoying. So.. I will make it short here. If I can.

All that load of crap talk and comments and everything.. So unnecessary. And if you have a bad day don't come and tell me about something I don't even care about. Keep that away from me. Far, far away.

When I can't listen to that rubbish of yours, I just walk away. Simple as that.

That's my defense, I need space and distance. The air around me feels like it's strangling me.

And then.. I can breath again. 

Could anyone learn me how to handle these situations in any other way.. or is this even normal (or human)..  And somehow. It feels like everything repeats itself. Like I have written about this 4 times or something. It's a never ending circle and it always comes back in the same form. And always effects me the most. Maybe the problem is me. Or everyone else. I don't know what to think anymore. I just hope this will end up sometime!

 Now I just listen to sad songs because they are bringing up these stupid memories. Sometimes I wish I could go into my mind and put it on stop-mode. So that I wouldn't remember a thing from the past. But then, I wouldn't be able to learn from my mistakes.

Or remember the good things, happy moments.. OH GOD, why is life so complicated?!

Should I study to become a psychologist when I find these life-dreams-memories-questions so fascinating.. -.-'

And now I just want to scream really loud so that every neighbour can hear me.

Let all this anger and relief come out..

You could imagine me as a huge bomb that loads all needless information inside and then I keep it inside for a while.. Until something launches that bomb and I just want to dig myself a hole in the ground. Then I have hard to crawl up to the surface again. But I have survived.. thrice.. I think. Does it make me strong? Oh yes, but it keeps dragging me down into that hole over and over again. "Here we go again"  Hope you got that pictured.

 I did, with many details. Not denying it. 

And because I'm a sensitive peace of thoughts and feelings.. I nearly started crying when I talked with a friend on Facebook. We talked about loneliness. And I got tears in my eyes.

So, I have decided that I will now concentrate on what's good in life. Not all that negativity that some are so talented to show others. You can try to drag me down, but I'll get up from that hole by my own. Because I care, I feel for real and I don't bring everyone down because I have a bad day. I'm true, I'm not fake. I don't play any games, I don't try to be better than I am, I'm true to who I am. 

To end this so called essay, I find music suitable.

Haadi

You Know I Dream In Colour

Can't stop. Drawing. Those. Lines. On. My. Hand. 

It's just black and then green or any other colour.

So addictive. Now I will draw those lines forever. And then there was one who thought it was real. I would have wanted to say Yes, but I don't want to lie. And now it sounds like I have painted that "tattoo". 

No.

Erika is the true artist here. She draws and paints amazingly good.

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Scary as hell, I have my first test on Monday. German.. Okay, it's better than Math but.. still.. Test week -.-    

The Math test, I don't even want to be reminded.. What I have to read.

And I'm still wondering, why is time flying by so fast? I don't understand. Soon it's Christmas. Hahaa..

Have a nice weekend,

Haadi

Till We Lose Control

Oh God, Reality hit me hard on Sunday. When I realized that I have my first test on next Monday..

Test week, don't like you really..


Pictures that inspires me at the moment:

Tomorrow a long day.. After the "gammeldans" thing I will meet a couple of friends in town. So nice to see them again, it's so long ago. 

Bye for now,

Haadi

Let's Make It Happen Tonight

I saw Magic Mike yesterday. It was.. good. But it felt like everything happened in the beginning. But the ending.. So predictable..

Today I'm just doing homework and taking it easy..

That's what Sundays are for.. haha.

Now, some music that's stuck in my head right now!

Yey, tomorrow dance!!!!  I'm excited because I love the teacher.. Maybe it's because she's so good or then because she is so creative and makes new choreographies every two or three weeks..

And I wish that our next dance performance before Christmas will be amazing.

Really looking forward to dance in my new hip hop.. 

Have a nice Sunday y'all!

Haadi

OMG Ciara is back ♥

Come On Make Me Fly So High

 Omg, my Mum bought this to me today. It matches with my Old Dances dress! Yeyy!
Now it remains to buy some jewellery and then I'm done with all the clothing. ( Nearly)
The last thing I need to think about is what hairdo I will wear on D-day. I have thought about Katniss' hairdo in Hunger Games but I'm not sure. It remains to be seen.

this was on sale for just 10 €!! Can u believe it?! Me neither. 

What else have I done today..

Well, after school I went to town with I, E and J. We ate Rax Pizzas and had fun with the elevators.. Heh. 

Then I had a doctor's appointment and whooptidoo.. I have ear inflammation in both ears. 

So now I've got two sorts of medication to take..  that should work.

And I have some kind of shopping desire.

I want...

And..

this one..

from gina tricot.. I want this!

Have a good weekend you all!

Haadi

You Didn't Have To Cut Me Up

Holy crap. I.just.love.this.song!
Why haven't I heard this song before??

Omg.
And I have these strange things when I just have to hear a special song or an artist's whole album just because I need to. So today I have some kind of Ellie Goulding thing and yesterday I was obsessed with Christina Perri. Hmm. I hope this is normal somehow.


 Today I met Jontte and Ina in town for some really good salad that I still can taste in my mouth.
Well, not really. My stomach feels all the laughs. Yep, I can just say that this is normal by now.


So, tomorrow a very long day.. From 8 to 4 on afternoon.

Yey, well. I haven't died yet .


Yeah, writing more later,





Haadi

We're Interrupted By The Heat Of The Sun

Nowadays I'm more happy, smiling more and laughing more. Last autumn I felt like crap.

I hated it. I just thought about all the projects and homework I had ahead of me. I really didn't like it. Stressing out about everything. 

Now I don't stress when I don't need to. Except for when I have a speech. Hate those shit unnecessary things when you stand there all alone in front of 35 faces. And I just die!!

Always after that I can't relax at all... I have to do something.. Jump , run, dance.. Whatever.. Just something.. God, why wasn't I born with a natural talent holding speeches????

Next mini speech on Friday. F*ck that shit. 

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See you later,

Haadi 

You Look At Me As You Hit Me With Lightning

I will make sure I keep my distance.

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And I keep waiting.

That was a really good weekend after all. I mean, I survived from everything. 

Not telling details.. 

So, I "promised" to show some pictures. I didn't take that much, I just hadn't time. Hehh.

And now I'm trying to do schoolwork. It doesn't work that well.

I'm too lazy. Fb takes all my attention..

Soon to my hip hop lesson.. Then geography project.. gaah. 

Latersss..

Haadi

Breathing You In When I Want You Out

Dance dance like it's the last, last night of your life..

So I was dancing today.. Yey. I'm already excited for our dance performance which is in December..

But before that we will perform our school musical!!!

OMG, it is going to be so good.. I just have this good feeling about it.

Looking forward to Saturday.. I will tell you later what I have done then ;)

Maybe some pictures, not promising anything..

Do you know the feeling when you know that you're life is perfect at the moment but still somehow the smallest thing that irritates you can ruin your day?

I don't like that feeling.. 

Or, I have felt it once or twice this week and it's so frustrating.. Like if you have a good day until someone says something that REALLY pisses you off.. And then you just get angry on everything.. And everyone. 
Luckily, I'm not angry for a long time. I somehow push away the thoughts and then I'm happy again.

Well, tomorrow math test.. I haven't practiced at all. Success.. Or not. I will read through some of my notes tomorrow, heh. 

P.S. I admire my dance teacher.. Irrelevant, I know.

Don't talk about, let me see. Let me see, let me see..

Good night,

Haadi

Stuck on replay in my head.

Lights Can't Chase Us

Soo Cool Video! It reminds me of a Coldplay music video or something.. :D 

I nearly died when I heard this yesterday .. Someone has a really good music taste.

Lemme See

*****...*****

So fuc*ing annoying.. Sorry, bad day -.-'' 

Nearly exploded.. Just a little thing that made me bothered.. I just.. gaad..

Don't come again and say to me that I don't have any friends.. Or that you think you know my personality..
 Seriously, you're not much better.. 

And those who don't like me.. You don't need to.. All people can't like everyone!

Do I have to say that again? -.-

You are who you are and it is what it is, so simple.

So shut up...

It really helps to dance away the anger.. I mean like put the anger on something positive.. Like dancing.. 

I danced yesterday thanks to this really annoying thing.. Punch punch.. 

And why is people so different in real life? I don't get that.. So childish.. Immature.. Whatever. 

Sure, I shouldn't compare real life with internet.. But I can't ignore it!

But is it that hard to make an effort to say a little hi?

I don't like people who judge me and then I don't even know if it's meant as a joke or for real?

Keep those opinions for yourself!

How hard is that?

My guess: Really hard..

Sigh of relief.. 

I knew it would help writing this.. 

And those who think I'm weird or silly.. 

You don't need to read this..

 I feel the air getting fresher around me.

Thank God I started writing a blog.

And thank God that I have friends.. Who I can trust. In real life.

I'm not that internet addict-type..

Until next time,

Haadi

The Girl On Fire

What I have done today:

Nothing special.. Just taking it easy.. That's why Sundays exists.

Feeling better, not as much flu as yesterday.

It remains to be seen if I go dancing tomorrow.. We'll see!

Writing more later,

Haadi

I love those amazing dance moves.

We Can Dance Forever

I just want that blazer so bad! :) And the white top underneath that has "diamonds" on its collar ..

Ring from H&M.

ear cuff that wouldn't cooperate..

♥

Mavala nail polish, colour Vertigo Red.

I've got flu and it's so annoying!

But, my rescuer was the movie: Hunger Games!

I just love it soo soo much. So perfect and everything is so perfectly done. 

Then I bought those high heels as my new fall shoes! They are so comfortable although the heel is 7 cm high. Holy moly, am I going to be able to run at all? :D

Now music and maybe something good to eat..

Have a good Saturday evening!

Haadi