Love Lockdown

Excited holy my. gosh. I really like this song.

Even more excited about our dance. 

Now I'm Back On My Feet

So here are the pictures from yesterday!

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Speechless ♥♥

can't really believe I "hugged" her..!!

Good night,

Haadi

I Envy You

Omg Didi.. She sings so gooood!!!!!!!!!

Like really good.. Amazing talent.

Hehe I got a few pictures that were good but I will show them tomorrow since the pictures won't cooperate with me tonight.

And she sang Speechless. 

So I was really pleased to see the concert and we sat on the second row. Not bad at all. 

And here's one of her songs she sang which I really liked!

(I liked all but this one I hadn't heard before)

Enjoy,

Haadi

Here We Go!

Tomorrow it's it!!! We have our first musical performance! For parents, relatives and friends. Yesterday we were in school until half past 7 in the evening rehearsing. And we had rehearsals today too and hopefully everything will work out perfectly tomorrow and on Wednesday. I'm both excited and nervous for the dances I'm in but we'll see how it goes.

Lately, I have noticed that if I'm tired in the morning I get more energy from somewhere at noon.. 

Maybe it's just me seeing my friends in school that makes me happy and energetic.

 Hmm, weird or what.

Until next time,

Haadi

New song ;)

You Wouldn't Even Talk To Me

Something weird happened today. I wasn't that nervous before my speech.. And that's so unusual because I normally feel bad and I just want to sink underground and hide..

And now I wasn't that well prepared as I used to be. Am I starting to loosen up or am I just lazy? Hah, wouldn't be surprised if it's the second option. It feels like I have been lazier than I've ever been.. Like I'm taking every project too easy. Now we have a deadline next week and I'm supposed to write a novel review and I have barely read the book. 

I'm worried about my future.. heh..

I just wish I had money right now. I want to shop. That's not a good thing I know.. But every time I'm in a clothing store I just grab everything I find fancy and then I want to test everything.. But then I can't buy much once.. Right now I just buy stuff if I really need.

Oh, well. Soon it's Christmas, then I will get some money.

om nom, soon it's time to bake gingerbreads... After 1 month or so..

Laters,







Haadi

Face It All Together

Oh My..

Keeps surprising me.. Like I never know what to expect.. 

Loreen's new album is freaking awesome. Can't even describe the feeling I get when I hear her songs.   !!!

This weekend I have been at my relatives place. There was much less snow here at home. It's always the opposite..

And I saw the newest Bond film. It was really good actually! I haven't even seen any other 007-film, I think. And I fell in love with Adele's Skyfall-song. Maybe it was because the film overall was quite good. 

New week starts tomorrow, I'm not ready no, I have a speech on Wednesday. And I'm still not sure what I have to talk about in 10 long minutes..

Hope I'll survive. (Hah)

Good night!

Haadi

You Don't Even Dare To Look At Me

Wtf seriously. One can not fail that much. Really. 

 I'm on awkward level 100 right now..
Hope I'll learn from my mistakes. 

Feeling good after today's dance lesson. Now I'm just thinking about the lyrics in the song we danced to.. Well, I'll find out next week..

And today I heard that I have an English speech next week.. Whooptidoo.. That teacher is so random.
And I don't know what topic I will choose.

I want to be a skilled nail-maker too.. 








Good night,





Haadi

Black Fluid

I.need.to.buy.one.thing.

And that must be soon. Because I can't stand this amazing shop-sprayed scent on my wrist.
It smells like heaven.
Maybe I'll do it here on my Fall Holiday.. We'll see.
The fragrance is just one of a kind. In the world. And made by the best.

Fame
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Lady Gaga

 from Accessorize ;) glitter and pearls. 




Now I'm off to my last lesson today.





Haadi

I Know What You're Thinking

I must say that something's really wrong with me when I like Justin Bieber's music. 

Well, I hope it's just a phrase.. hah.

Today I went to town with S and I bought a necklace for my "gammeldans". I hope I won't regret buying it after a couple of months. I will show pictures tomorrow.

I think fate has something to do with my everyday life. Really typical things that I wish both to happen and not to happen. I don't know if I should laugh and be surprised or be annoyed. And when outsiders don't know anything about this whole situation, it still seems to me that there is a bigger so called force that makes everything happen. Like a traction force that drags me nearer (this one particular person) and it is so random I could write an essay about it, or not. Like everyone somehow "knows" that there's something going on. I don't know. Maybe I'm in a dreamworld? And the real me is in the real world. Someone sees me all the time and controls every decision. Random philosophy..

Good night!

Haadi

I Chose To Be Happy

Feelings help me to express myself. Really much actually. 

Sharper moves and determination in what I'm doing. I mean dancing.

It's just that it must happen something so that I think differently and show my feelings. 

This should really happen before every dance performance. Although there's no one who sees what you feel when you dance. If you dance in front a huge audience.

There must be something good with dancing.. Since I have learned how to deal with my emotions.. After 7 years of dancing.. Haha.

And I've learnt that it's more fun to dance when you give at least 100% or more. (maybe 110%, at least in one of my dances we have to give that much). Then also one thing that is important. To feel the music.

Two days left of school before our Fall Break. It's going to be really nice to just take it easy and have fun with friends.

Writing more soon,

Haadi

Amazing

Sorry, Jontte but I just have to brag on this amazing singer from our neighboring country!!

LOREEN ♥

Her new song! I'm kind of hyperactive and again.. Cold shivers..

And then she has also made a remake of the song My Heart Is Refusing Me.

Love.Her.Songs.

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Yeah, and my Saturday evening was really fun with the best company! Thank you all! 

Had dance today.. We heard how much time we have left to practice until we have our performance.. It is just 7 WEEKS??! 

Shocking, but true. 

Good night,

Haadi 

Let's Party

Really awesome day yesterday. Happened everything nice and fun that possibly could happen on one day.

I met Ina, Jontte and a few other people who I haven't met for ages.

Then I found a black sweater for my school-musical dance. And an ear cuff on sale. xD

In the evening I'll go to my friend's place having a good time and party.. And dance! 

Have a great Saturday evening y'all!!

Haadi 

I'll Be Your Silver

No test today, lovely morning. 

Feeling good, I think I've found a way to be happy. Like how I make my days get better. It was yesterday I had this really strange feeling. I felt complete although I don't have everything I want.

That is how you define happiness.. hah.

Me likey this picture.!! ♥

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Bye for now,

 Haadi

I Gaze At My Face

This song!!!!!

The Finnish TV program "Dance" last week.. My oh my..

There was two dancers who danced to this song.

I could nearly see Katniss in her.. Same smooth moves.

Cold shivers down my back. Woah, haven't had those since I had Euphoria stuck in my head.

Or no, when I saw Loreen dancing. 

I should be reading to my test, heh. Got to go..

Haadi

So Let's Just Stay Awake Until We Grow Older

I want to learn how to sing perfectly... 

Found this girl from US who sings really good covers.

Holy my..

She should participate in Idols or X-factor.

Her voice sounds like a mixture between Rihanna, Kelly Clarkson, Katy Perry.

And she sings Lady Gaga's song The Edge of Glory too, so talented!

I had my second last test today. Well, I have to say.. What the poop.. Really.. I had read on the totally wrong things... I just focused on "read.the.whole.book.don't.stop." -.-'

The only thing that went okay was the essay answer.. I ended up writing 3 ½ pages.. :D

Good me.

Dance today!! Yeeaah feeling the energyy.

Haadi

I Can't Stop This Now

Freakin' excited. Looking forward to next weekend.

Today has been a really good day. I have been at home and in town. Shopping. A pair of jeans that are, guess what colour.. Dark red. Love them ♥ Then I bought the rest of my next  semester's books. 

And what comes to yesterday, I bought a nail polish. Haha. 

 But the colour is somehow sparkling, neon-ish and purple. 

I've never had a so huge Oh my god-experience thanks to a nail polish colour. 

Mavala's Purple Sensation ♥

Tomorrow I have musical rehearsals in school. And on Monday  I have the geography test..

We'll see how that goes..

Have a nice weekend,

Haadi 

Caught Me There

All I want is you.. Agnes' songs playing non-stop in my head.
Maybe it's because of specific reasons.. I can't focus nor control my thoughts. 
Somehow I think it's not just me.. Going nuts.



Feeling sooooooooooo good right now!! I just have 2 tests left!! I've written 3 already!

Today I had my Maths test. I think it went okay, but I'm not sure.
And yesterday I wrote my Finnish test. It was so easy! 


Now I have a craving for shopping. I just want that cardigan from Gina I tested today.. And a black basic blazer.. Gaah..

After school today me, E, C and P went to town for coffee. Nice talking with them, haven't done it for a long time. 

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Soon dance,dance some hip hop and shake that body, oh yeah..

I'm Right In Front Of You

Oh.. I noticed today. That this Monday-dance is getting more difficult.. 

We've had 2 choreographies now and today we started doing the third.. And this one.. Is so much harder than the two before.. Holy my.. Okay. No stress.. No, no.. This is getting as hard as the hip hop I have on Thursdays.. And the one on Thursday is hard but you'll get it after a couple of weeks. 

Enough with this now.

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Now I just have 4 tests to go!!!

And today I wrote my German test. I was really easy, can't even believe it.. 

Next test is on Wednesday and that's Finnish. I hope that the test will be easy.

Good night,

Haadi

Cover Your Eyes So You Don't Know The Secret

This might sound really weird. 

But I have noticed that by everyday life gets more fun and better when I think about good things and don't think about those crappy things that sometimes jumps out of my mouth because I can't keep everything inside and then I will explode and everyone thinks I'm annoying. So.. I will make it short here. If I can.

All that load of crap talk and comments and everything.. So unnecessary. And if you have a bad day don't come and tell me about something I don't even care about. Keep that away from me. Far, far away.

When I can't listen to that rubbish of yours, I just walk away. Simple as that.

That's my defense, I need space and distance. The air around me feels like it's strangling me.

And then.. I can breath again. 

Could anyone learn me how to handle these situations in any other way.. or is this even normal (or human)..  And somehow. It feels like everything repeats itself. Like I have written about this 4 times or something. It's a never ending circle and it always comes back in the same form. And always effects me the most. Maybe the problem is me. Or everyone else. I don't know what to think anymore. I just hope this will end up sometime!

 Now I just listen to sad songs because they are bringing up these stupid memories. Sometimes I wish I could go into my mind and put it on stop-mode. So that I wouldn't remember a thing from the past. But then, I wouldn't be able to learn from my mistakes.

Or remember the good things, happy moments.. OH GOD, why is life so complicated?!

Should I study to become a psychologist when I find these life-dreams-memories-questions so fascinating.. -.-'

And now I just want to scream really loud so that every neighbour can hear me.

Let all this anger and relief come out..

You could imagine me as a huge bomb that loads all needless information inside and then I keep it inside for a while.. Until something launches that bomb and I just want to dig myself a hole in the ground. Then I have hard to crawl up to the surface again. But I have survived.. thrice.. I think. Does it make me strong? Oh yes, but it keeps dragging me down into that hole over and over again. "Here we go again"  Hope you got that pictured.

 I did, with many details. Not denying it. 

And because I'm a sensitive peace of thoughts and feelings.. I nearly started crying when I talked with a friend on Facebook. We talked about loneliness. And I got tears in my eyes.

So, I have decided that I will now concentrate on what's good in life. Not all that negativity that some are so talented to show others. You can try to drag me down, but I'll get up from that hole by my own. Because I care, I feel for real and I don't bring everyone down because I have a bad day. I'm true, I'm not fake. I don't play any games, I don't try to be better than I am, I'm true to who I am. 

To end this so called essay, I find music suitable.

Haadi

You Know I Dream In Colour

Can't stop. Drawing. Those. Lines. On. My. Hand. 

It's just black and then green or any other colour.

So addictive. Now I will draw those lines forever. And then there was one who thought it was real. I would have wanted to say Yes, but I don't want to lie. And now it sounds like I have painted that "tattoo". 

No.

Erika is the true artist here. She draws and paints amazingly good.

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Scary as hell, I have my first test on Monday. German.. Okay, it's better than Math but.. still.. Test week -.-    

The Math test, I don't even want to be reminded.. What I have to read.

And I'm still wondering, why is time flying by so fast? I don't understand. Soon it's Christmas. Hahaa..

Have a nice weekend,

Haadi