Bizarre Happenings

So.. uhm... I haven't been writing since I haven't had the time or motivation to write anything. Last Monday we had our dance performance. I was ill so I felt like crap all day but I still managed to get through it. And it's always fun on stage. 

And I have had two entrance exams this week. First here at home and then in Helsinki. 

I really don't know how they went but I hope I will be studying somewhere in fall. 

Yesterday I dyed my hair at the hairdresser's. I'm kind of blond again. I'm really happy now. 

I can't believe that I'm graduating next Saturday, like where did the time go?

So surreal. I have worked my ass of for three years and now it's about to end. 

I have been looking forward to the day but now it's too close and I'm like nervous. 

But okay, I have work for the whole week so.. 

Laterss,

Haadi

Learn From Your Mistakes

Hi! Guess who is graduating in two weeks!!! Me!


So relieved.. Now I only need to get better with this freaking flu or virus. Like haven't I suffered enough already please god. I don't want to get a throat surgery.




I just want to learn how to live in the moment and not think about the past. It's like really annoying when I can't let go even though I was treated like a dumpster. Seriously where are the nice people.. I always end up hurt and then I wonder why I'm so vulnerable .. fml..
But this only makes me stronger. I can just screw that person...



AAAnd on Monday we have the dance performance! I'm so excited because this performance is really good! Like all the different dances have a good story. Can't wait! Also, the fact that this might be the last performance with my friends. It sucks when no one knows where we might be next fall. Sad but true.

There are even schoolfriends I haven't seen since March and then we just get the chance to meet on graduation day. After that everyone will go to different places to work.





Soo, a loong and big day on Monday it is.. I have the language entrance exams then.. and after that I'll have to go to the dance thing.





Good night,





Haadi

Time Goes By So Fast

Hey ya'll!

I've had a nice weekend. I visited my relatives and on Friday I got to know that the exam results will be revealed next Friday! Holy jesus if I don't get through because I have bought everything I'll need for the big day. 

More freaky is the day after tomorrow. I can't even breath properly anymore. On Tuesday morning I will get some kind of realization attack and faint or something. 

Well, I guess that's life. Omg so annoying that I have started to say that too... Thanks... man.. I have no perception of time whatsoever. I alwas think naah, I'll have enough to do that later... And then it gets closer and I'm screwed. 

Laters,




Haadi

Obsessed With Music

Hello there!

I'm feeling better now. I've been to work and now I'm having the entire weekend ahead of me. Then I do have to read tomorrow. It's getting closer and I'm not happy about it, I'm actually terrified. It's like an exam you know that is going to be really difficult and when you get it in front of you you're just like "oh, is this a joke?". So yeah, I'm going to get them creeps when I walk inside that building...

Enough said about that now, I started wondering on my way to work today.. Is there any human being in this world who doesn't like music.. Is it even possible? I mean, I listen to music everywhere. Even my hobby involves music, haha. So is there anyone out there who claims that doesn't listen to music whatsoever. I would like to meet that person and ask how it is to be isolated from the great world of rhythm and base. I have been away too long from the dancelessons. Especially when I have been ill and then I'm at home and listen to something and start to improvise and whatever. So what I'm trying to say is that after almost 9 years of dancing I listen to music in a very different way. I listen to all the sounds in the background of the song and then at some point I only listen to that ONE sound. You can't understand how disturbing it is. But okay, on the other hand, those background sounds are important for dancers because those can be a move or a pause or something else. Oh my god, before this turns into a memoir about my ,haha, dancing life, I will end it here.

I would love to have those trousers.. :)

Good night,

Haadi

Life Is Hard

Omg. I'm so stressed right now. That freaking exam is in less than a week. And I won't remember everything holy shit. On top of that exam-stress I have been ill and home for two days now. Feeling better today but yesterday was all crappy with fever that I haven't had for like 6 years (knock on wood) and suddenly yesterday was like the worst day in my life with an indescribable pain in my throat. 

So I've missed two days of work and now I feel like a shitty employee. 

So tomorrow I'll probably have a full workday which means 7½ hours. Oh jesus kill me now. Like it's not bad enough that I don't know how to do everything yet and then my employer says that I have to work the hole shift.. Telemarketer for the win.. Haha, so ironic when I thought that I'll never do that job.

The only thing I can eat right now is like soup and ice cream. What a diet. I promise you when I'm better I will eat everything delicious again.

Until later,

Haadi

When You Touch Me I Die

Partying twice this week has been awkwardly exhausting. First was Wednesday and now yesterday. 

I don't understand those people who can drink all the time and not even be hangover. I'm mostly just tired because I never get enough sleep.. Okay, but I had fun so that's the most important thing.


Time goes by so quickly. It feels like only a month ago since we had our final exams but it's like 2 months or something. I'm so relieved though because I have a dress, a pair of shoes and the hat for the graduation so there's nothing to stress about that anymore.
Only thing I'm stressing about right now is the entrance exams. Too little time and too much to read.


Okay, well. I better read that book then in 2 weeks. Oh, and my job starts tomorrow.
I hope it'll be kind of different from my last year's job.

Laterss,

Haadi