Goodbye 2014, Welcome 2015

Last day of the year. There have been ups and downs. I truly hope that next year will bring new adventures, success getting a study place, new friends and so on. A good year in general. 

I've learned from my mistakes (hopefully) and moved on. I'm ready for a fresh start, bring it on 2015!

Here are some good memories from this year:

not in the correct order but whatever

Happy new year everyone!






Haadi

Deep Into My Soul

Hi.

So now everything's set and done for the holidays. On Monday we had our Christmas dance show. 
It went really well and it was a whole lot of fun to see all the different dances. I had kind of a sad feeling or something after the show though. Earlier this fall I had nearly decided that this will be the last time I take any dance classes. Now I'm not so sure anymore. I would love to continue after this short holiday but on the other hand I feel like I need to do something else. A new challenge, a challenge where not only my body gets stronger but also my mind. 

You may not know what I mean now but I have a really bad self control when it comes to training. I used to have a such a clear picture of my goals when I was in the athletics and that's already 4 years ago. Woah time goes by so fast. I did quit athletics due to an inflammation and that I felt that I was never going to be as good as the best in our training group or whatever you call it. I was really strong at that point, I had muscles that were strong. Now I just feel ... not as strong hah. What I would like to do is build back that muscle strength. Oh enough of this crap now.

I just love these pictures haha, especially the smaller ones.

Laterss,





Haadi

Extempore

Hello.



I've been pondering back and forth and now I have finally signed up for spring exams. Yey.
Time has gone by so fast again, as usual, and now it's soon Christmas. 

And so yesterday I ended up in town with some people. Extempore indeed. I had fun. 

Soppa oli irti big time. I also managed to rip my jeans ahhaha.

Laterss,

Haadi

We Are The Treasures That We Find

Hello.

Right now I feel like I don't want to stay in this town anymore. Not even in this country. What I would need is a brake. Go somewhere abroad and for a moment forget about everything. phew..



I feel so restless when I don't have anything meaningful to do in my life. I should start studying so that I have some kind of goal to reach. Okay, I must admit that it has been really relaxing without any homework and school. So I will enjoy this freedom while it still lasts. 



A cosy evening evening is accompanied by good music.

We Are Fire

Hello there.

It's so funny how you imagine how places and homes look like on the basis that another person tells you. It's like when you read a book and you see it clearly but in reality it doesn't look like it at all. That happens to me all the time. So random.. 
Last weekend was just what I needed in this black and white life of mine. First we watched a movie, The Maze Runner. It was really good although I hadn't heard about it.  Then we went to my friends place and sang singstar until 5 am. The next day we went to the bar. All in all, I had a really great weekend.

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I got my servingpass certificate today yes! I'm so happy that I made it through. I bought a new nailpolish to celebrate ahhah.. 
Also our theme for the Christmas danceshow is art&fashion. So excited, can't barely sit still.






Until next time,






Haadi

White Shadows

Hello there.

So, my final exams are over and I just want to forget them as soon as possible because it went so badly. 

Oh and what else have I been doing.. Danced, met friends, had a really nice "kräftskiva" last weekend. Do you know the feeling when you want to do something so bad but then you think about your own situation and won't do it because you have done it so often lately? That's what I think about bars right now haha lol. 
It will change next week I know that. gaah my self-discipline is so worthless.

And omg CF has begun again! I'm totally addicted. 

Until later,


Haadi

Just frustrated, that's all

Hi.

So, my intention was to try to improve my final exam grades in English and Finnish. Hah hah haa. Such a joke. The listening comprehensions have been this week and man I'm just laughing when I try to remember what I was thinking in spring when I signed up for them. The English lc was so freaking hard and I just wanted it to be over the minute it started. Hopefully the reading comprehensions will be easier. 

I'm not really sure if I've mentioned which dance classes I take part in right now. I chose voguing and lyrical dance. The latter one is way outside my comfort zone but the good thing is I will learn something new ( I guess).

Until next time,

Haadi

Spin Me Around

Sometimes I feel so hopeless and I'm restless. Sometimes I just sit and think that everything's a mess. Sometimes I just smile out of nothing. And sometimes everything seems like you have so many problems you want to sink under the ground.

.........

Yep, so what have I done these past few days. I've been dancing, read to my exams that I have in less than two weeks (holy crap) and thought about my possibilities when it comes to my year without studies. Now I'm thinking like why didn't I go to any vocational school but three years ago I didn't know what I wanted to be. In the today's society you need to have either a finished education or the experience from the same field of work.
Oh well, I'll just have to hang in here, the luck must turn at some point.






Good night,



Haadi

Fun Times

Oh christ.. Yesterday was freakingg awesome partytime!! I haven't had that fun for ages.

Although I make a complete fool of myself everytime I'm in that state. 

Right now I feel like never again, but you know me, nothing keeps me away when I want to have fun.

I wonder what that cashier might have thought about us slightly drunk girls stepping inside that store in the morning hahaha.

Oh and the job.. I didn't get it but I'm searching feverishly for something else.

Good night,

Haadi

Live In The Moment

I'm nervous as hell.. Job interviews are never going to be a calm thing for me. I'm always freaking out and then I just get black-outs when I can't think straight when I don't find anything smart or clever to say. And I'll probably faint if anyone of my old teachers show up(holy jesus). Oh well, I have nothing to lose so I'm giving my all tomorrow.

I've come to the conclusion that I miss school. Kind of. It's just the everyday routine that I miss nothing else about it really. Maybe the fact that you do something useful with your life and learn.. After 12 years of school it feels like a big part of my everyday life is not there anymore. 

I see I have too much to think right now..

Nighterss,

Haadi

Life Is A Party

Wknd festival this year was so awesome and so much fun! 

And of course, when we went to another city, we got a taste of the nightlife there.

Laterss,

Haadi

Summer Memories

So freaking hopeless.. That's how it feels to be without a job.

Oh well, I just have to keep my eyes open and start to do this job search for real.

some pictures from my latest actions ..



I've realized that this summer is (soon) over. The time has gone by so fast although I haven't been working all the time. 

What I did yesterday instead of going out, again; I watched CF season 2. All episodes. 
When I watched the season finale I just wanted to see more..
Something to look forward to in my life hah.

I'll write later,




Haadi

All I Can Say Is Eh

Hello.

 So, everything and nothing has happened since I wrote. I've started looking for real jobs. 

Haha. With that I mean jobs which give you a proper salary. Friday last week was like a slap in my face so I guess I'll never step inside that building again....

Otherwise I'm enjoying my holiday as long as I can. I've been shopping, partying and just been.  It just feels so weird when I'm not going to any school this fall. It feels so empty. 

I need to see the friends who are going to move to other cities, countries and so on. 

Until later,

Haadi

I Gave My Everything

I'm so restless at the moment. I know I have only been home for two weeks or something but it feels like I need to have a daily activity. In matter of fact, that happens next Tuesday. I'm starting to get more nervous about it. My new job. To my relief, we're four new people starting at the same time. 


Time goes by so slowly.. when I'm home doing nothing. I should do something useful like start jogging again. But then again, I have my lovely old injury which I don't want to experience again so I'll stick to the safer sport : dancing. I just have to figure out which dance classes I'm going to take part in. Oh well, that is still a month from now. 




Good nighterss,




Haadi

Let's Light It Up

So, here comes some photos from our trip to Tallinn. I need to go back there sometime.

It's so unbelievably cheap there when you think about the clothes and everything.

 these two were from a store called Terranova.

Until next time,

Haadi

To Cry Or Not To Cry

I'm such a lucky one. I'm on antibiotics and some cortisone right now. My throat is so swollen so I have had a soup and ice cream diet here for a couple of days. Hope it gets better.

And oh yeah.. Apparently I have one year ahead of my with everything else but studying. Kind of sucks since I, in my opinion, applied to so many different study subjects but fine. I don't know if I should laugh, cry or just be mad. 

I actually did it, finally. I quit my job and I have about 2 weeks of doing whatever I want. I would really like to start dancing again but I'll have to wait for that until August. Before that I'm going to start my new job. 

Omg I just have so little to do toght now and when I have something planned everything happens on one weekend or so. But that's summer heh. 

Laterss,




Haadi

So Hard To Forget

I can't be more amazed. A hell of a party at Ruissi.

Not to mention Guetta. And very soon I will go to the Wknd festival( well okay it's over a month) and this time for two days. I freaking love festivals.

The bar is really tempting right now , but due to my sore throat amd barely any voice at all I decided for once to be wise and think about my health. 

Anyhow, I've been thinking about quitting my job because my throat cannot handle that shit anymore. 

But we'll see. 

Laterss,

Haadi