We Are The Treasures That We Find

Hello.

Right now I feel like I don't want to stay in this town anymore. Not even in this country. What I would need is a brake. Go somewhere abroad and for a moment forget about everything. phew..



I feel so restless when I don't have anything meaningful to do in my life. I should start studying so that I have some kind of goal to reach. Okay, I must admit that it has been really relaxing without any homework and school. So I will enjoy this freedom while it still lasts. 



A cosy evening evening is accompanied by good music.

We Are Fire

Hello there.

It's so funny how you imagine how places and homes look like on the basis that another person tells you. It's like when you read a book and you see it clearly but in reality it doesn't look like it at all. That happens to me all the time. So random.. 
Last weekend was just what I needed in this black and white life of mine. First we watched a movie, The Maze Runner. It was really good although I hadn't heard about it.  Then we went to my friends place and sang singstar until 5 am. The next day we went to the bar. All in all, I had a really great weekend.

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I got my servingpass certificate today yes! I'm so happy that I made it through. I bought a new nailpolish to celebrate ahhah.. 
Also our theme for the Christmas danceshow is art&fashion. So excited, can't barely sit still.






Until next time,






Haadi

White Shadows

Hello there.

So, my final exams are over and I just want to forget them as soon as possible because it went so badly. 

Oh and what else have I been doing.. Danced, met friends, had a really nice "kräftskiva" last weekend. Do you know the feeling when you want to do something so bad but then you think about your own situation and won't do it because you have done it so often lately? That's what I think about bars right now haha lol. 
It will change next week I know that. gaah my self-discipline is so worthless.

And omg CF has begun again! I'm totally addicted. 

Until later,


Haadi

Just frustrated, that's all

Hi.

So, my intention was to try to improve my final exam grades in English and Finnish. Hah hah haa. Such a joke. The listening comprehensions have been this week and man I'm just laughing when I try to remember what I was thinking in spring when I signed up for them. The English lc was so freaking hard and I just wanted it to be over the minute it started. Hopefully the reading comprehensions will be easier. 

I'm not really sure if I've mentioned which dance classes I take part in right now. I chose voguing and lyrical dance. The latter one is way outside my comfort zone but the good thing is I will learn something new ( I guess).

Until next time,

Haadi

Spin Me Around

Sometimes I feel so hopeless and I'm restless. Sometimes I just sit and think that everything's a mess. Sometimes I just smile out of nothing. And sometimes everything seems like you have so many problems you want to sink under the ground.

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Yep, so what have I done these past few days. I've been dancing, read to my exams that I have in less than two weeks (holy crap) and thought about my possibilities when it comes to my year without studies. Now I'm thinking like why didn't I go to any vocational school but three years ago I didn't know what I wanted to be. In the today's society you need to have either a finished education or the experience from the same field of work.
Oh well, I'll just have to hang in here, the luck must turn at some point.






Good night,



Haadi

Fun Times

Oh christ.. Yesterday was freakingg awesome partytime!! I haven't had that fun for ages.

Although I make a complete fool of myself everytime I'm in that state. 

Right now I feel like never again, but you know me, nothing keeps me away when I want to have fun.

I wonder what that cashier might have thought about us slightly drunk girls stepping inside that store in the morning hahaha.

Oh and the job.. I didn't get it but I'm searching feverishly for something else.

Good night,

Haadi

Live In The Moment

I'm nervous as hell.. Job interviews are never going to be a calm thing for me. I'm always freaking out and then I just get black-outs when I can't think straight when I don't find anything smart or clever to say. And I'll probably faint if anyone of my old teachers show up(holy jesus). Oh well, I have nothing to lose so I'm giving my all tomorrow.

I've come to the conclusion that I miss school. Kind of. It's just the everyday routine that I miss nothing else about it really. Maybe the fact that you do something useful with your life and learn.. After 12 years of school it feels like a big part of my everyday life is not there anymore. 

I see I have too much to think right now..

Nighterss,

Haadi

Life Is A Party

Wknd festival this year was so awesome and so much fun! 

And of course, when we went to another city, we got a taste of the nightlife there.

Laterss,

Haadi

Summer Memories

So freaking hopeless.. That's how it feels to be without a job.

Oh well, I just have to keep my eyes open and start to do this job search for real.

some pictures from my latest actions ..



I've realized that this summer is (soon) over. The time has gone by so fast although I haven't been working all the time. 

What I did yesterday instead of going out, again; I watched CF season 2. All episodes. 
When I watched the season finale I just wanted to see more..
Something to look forward to in my life hah.

I'll write later,




Haadi

All I Can Say Is Eh

Hello.

 So, everything and nothing has happened since I wrote. I've started looking for real jobs. 

Haha. With that I mean jobs which give you a proper salary. Friday last week was like a slap in my face so I guess I'll never step inside that building again....

Otherwise I'm enjoying my holiday as long as I can. I've been shopping, partying and just been.  It just feels so weird when I'm not going to any school this fall. It feels so empty. 

I need to see the friends who are going to move to other cities, countries and so on. 

Until later,

Haadi

I Gave My Everything

I'm so restless at the moment. I know I have only been home for two weeks or something but it feels like I need to have a daily activity. In matter of fact, that happens next Tuesday. I'm starting to get more nervous about it. My new job. To my relief, we're four new people starting at the same time. 


Time goes by so slowly.. when I'm home doing nothing. I should do something useful like start jogging again. But then again, I have my lovely old injury which I don't want to experience again so I'll stick to the safer sport : dancing. I just have to figure out which dance classes I'm going to take part in. Oh well, that is still a month from now. 




Good nighterss,




Haadi

Let's Light It Up

So, here comes some photos from our trip to Tallinn. I need to go back there sometime.

It's so unbelievably cheap there when you think about the clothes and everything.

 these two were from a store called Terranova.

Until next time,

Haadi

To Cry Or Not To Cry

I'm such a lucky one. I'm on antibiotics and some cortisone right now. My throat is so swollen so I have had a soup and ice cream diet here for a couple of days. Hope it gets better.

And oh yeah.. Apparently I have one year ahead of my with everything else but studying. Kind of sucks since I, in my opinion, applied to so many different study subjects but fine. I don't know if I should laugh, cry or just be mad. 

I actually did it, finally. I quit my job and I have about 2 weeks of doing whatever I want. I would really like to start dancing again but I'll have to wait for that until August. Before that I'm going to start my new job. 

Omg I just have so little to do toght now and when I have something planned everything happens on one weekend or so. But that's summer heh. 

Laterss,




Haadi

So Hard To Forget

I can't be more amazed. A hell of a party at Ruissi.

Not to mention Guetta. And very soon I will go to the Wknd festival( well okay it's over a month) and this time for two days. I freaking love festivals.

The bar is really tempting right now , but due to my sore throat amd barely any voice at all I decided for once to be wise and think about my health. 

Anyhow, I've been thinking about quitting my job because my throat cannot handle that shit anymore. 

But we'll see. 

Laterss,

Haadi

Someone Worth Fighting For

Wow.

This week has been so rough. I won't make this 6 days a week- work a habit.

I was literally exhausted yesterday.

Anyhow, I've been thinking about....meaning of life. Since I started watching CF, I see things from a deeper point of view. Deeper in an emotional way. Obviously, when it's a show like that it involves deaths and here's where the importance of family, friends, presence and care (being there for eachother) comes into the spotlight. 

In the first place, my main reason I started watching the show was because of one actor and one celebrety. And man, I love this show so much. I can really admit, I have cried whilst I've been watching one or two episodes. It's so easy to relate to the emotions the characters are going through and it really hits me in the face everytime I watch a sad episode. So genuinely, if you people have some spare time, give this show a chance to impress you. Sometimes it can be pretty nasty but overall it's basically about humble friends, who are coworkers and they all have one thing in common; their hearts are in the right place. 

Well well before this turns into a sob story I'm going to tell you one thing.

I will have a job interview tomorrow before I go to work. I guess I'll see how it goes. 

In 2 weeks and 2 days I'll get to know if I got into any university. I'm super nervous because I really want to get in somewhere. Fingers crossed. 

Laterss,

Haadi

Hold On Tight Before It's Too Late

Some pictures of my shoppings lately:

Summersales in the stores, I love 'em so much.

 Omg, I'm so sleepdeprived and I signed up for job on Saturday. I hope I won't fall asleep on my desk though, hah. 

Tomorrow I'm going to meet up with S to buy the Ruissi ticket. I'm already excited because it's in one week.

I need to watch this one more time because I cried. I'm too emotional about everything right now so this was just sooo good.

I have to buy it when it comes out on dvd. A movie which is on my top 5 list right now.

Laterss,

Haadi

Do You Remember

Hi.

What have I been doing since the last time I wrote something here..

I've been partying.

Seen friends.

Thought about life.
(when wouldn't I do that)

Been broke for a while until I got my salary.

Partying again.

Realized that every small thing in life is the most important.

I had the funniest midsummer ever. 

Next week I have morning shift thank god..

Good night,

Haadi

How Could You Be So Heartless

So, what have I been up to lately.. Today I was so excited I couldn't concetrate at work because I had three dancelessons after work. It was so funny since I haven't been dancing since our performance.

Otherwise it has been a good day at work, we got the chance to meet one of the bosses and he treated everyone of us with lunch at Rax. So a pretty good day actually. 

That new dance style was Siéva and it was so cool. It's actually the only dance that has been founded in Finland. It was really interesting in a good way. 

Right now I'm just stressing about this autumn. Will I get a study place somewhere or will I have to work for a whole year.... I would really like to know already byt no, we'll have to wait until July. Also, Im broke right now. My payday is on Friday next week. Oh well, I'll have to cope one more week, I think I'll manage. 

Good night,

Haadi