Life Is A Party

Wknd festival this year was so awesome and so much fun! 

And of course, when we went to another city, we got a taste of the nightlife there.

Laterss,

Haadi

Summer Memories

So freaking hopeless.. That's how it feels to be without a job.

Oh well, I just have to keep my eyes open and start to do this job search for real.

some pictures from my latest actions ..



I've realized that this summer is (soon) over. The time has gone by so fast although I haven't been working all the time. 

What I did yesterday instead of going out, again; I watched CF season 2. All episodes. 
When I watched the season finale I just wanted to see more..
Something to look forward to in my life hah.

I'll write later,




Haadi

All I Can Say Is Eh

Hello.

 So, everything and nothing has happened since I wrote. I've started looking for real jobs. 

Haha. With that I mean jobs which give you a proper salary. Friday last week was like a slap in my face so I guess I'll never step inside that building again....

Otherwise I'm enjoying my holiday as long as I can. I've been shopping, partying and just been.  It just feels so weird when I'm not going to any school this fall. It feels so empty. 

I need to see the friends who are going to move to other cities, countries and so on. 

Until later,

Haadi

I Gave My Everything

I'm so restless at the moment. I know I have only been home for two weeks or something but it feels like I need to have a daily activity. In matter of fact, that happens next Tuesday. I'm starting to get more nervous about it. My new job. To my relief, we're four new people starting at the same time. 


Time goes by so slowly.. when I'm home doing nothing. I should do something useful like start jogging again. But then again, I have my lovely old injury which I don't want to experience again so I'll stick to the safer sport : dancing. I just have to figure out which dance classes I'm going to take part in. Oh well, that is still a month from now. 




Good nighterss,




Haadi

Let's Light It Up

So, here comes some photos from our trip to Tallinn. I need to go back there sometime.

It's so unbelievably cheap there when you think about the clothes and everything.

 these two were from a store called Terranova.

Until next time,

Haadi

To Cry Or Not To Cry

I'm such a lucky one. I'm on antibiotics and some cortisone right now. My throat is so swollen so I have had a soup and ice cream diet here for a couple of days. Hope it gets better.

And oh yeah.. Apparently I have one year ahead of my with everything else but studying. Kind of sucks since I, in my opinion, applied to so many different study subjects but fine. I don't know if I should laugh, cry or just be mad. 

I actually did it, finally. I quit my job and I have about 2 weeks of doing whatever I want. I would really like to start dancing again but I'll have to wait for that until August. Before that I'm going to start my new job. 

Omg I just have so little to do toght now and when I have something planned everything happens on one weekend or so. But that's summer heh. 

Laterss,




Haadi

So Hard To Forget

I can't be more amazed. A hell of a party at Ruissi.

Not to mention Guetta. And very soon I will go to the Wknd festival( well okay it's over a month) and this time for two days. I freaking love festivals.

The bar is really tempting right now , but due to my sore throat amd barely any voice at all I decided for once to be wise and think about my health. 

Anyhow, I've been thinking about quitting my job because my throat cannot handle that shit anymore. 

But we'll see. 

Laterss,

Haadi

Someone Worth Fighting For

Wow.

This week has been so rough. I won't make this 6 days a week- work a habit.

I was literally exhausted yesterday.

Anyhow, I've been thinking about....meaning of life. Since I started watching CF, I see things from a deeper point of view. Deeper in an emotional way. Obviously, when it's a show like that it involves deaths and here's where the importance of family, friends, presence and care (being there for eachother) comes into the spotlight. 

In the first place, my main reason I started watching the show was because of one actor and one celebrety. And man, I love this show so much. I can really admit, I have cried whilst I've been watching one or two episodes. It's so easy to relate to the emotions the characters are going through and it really hits me in the face everytime I watch a sad episode. So genuinely, if you people have some spare time, give this show a chance to impress you. Sometimes it can be pretty nasty but overall it's basically about humble friends, who are coworkers and they all have one thing in common; their hearts are in the right place. 

Well well before this turns into a sob story I'm going to tell you one thing.

I will have a job interview tomorrow before I go to work. I guess I'll see how it goes. 

In 2 weeks and 2 days I'll get to know if I got into any university. I'm super nervous because I really want to get in somewhere. Fingers crossed. 

Laterss,

Haadi

Hold On Tight Before It's Too Late

Some pictures of my shoppings lately:

Summersales in the stores, I love 'em so much.

 Omg, I'm so sleepdeprived and I signed up for job on Saturday. I hope I won't fall asleep on my desk though, hah. 

Tomorrow I'm going to meet up with S to buy the Ruissi ticket. I'm already excited because it's in one week.

I need to watch this one more time because I cried. I'm too emotional about everything right now so this was just sooo good.

I have to buy it when it comes out on dvd. A movie which is on my top 5 list right now.

Laterss,

Haadi

Do You Remember

Hi.

What have I been doing since the last time I wrote something here..

I've been partying.

Seen friends.

Thought about life.
(when wouldn't I do that)

Been broke for a while until I got my salary.

Partying again.

Realized that every small thing in life is the most important.

I had the funniest midsummer ever. 

Next week I have morning shift thank god..

Good night,

Haadi

How Could You Be So Heartless

So, what have I been up to lately.. Today I was so excited I couldn't concetrate at work because I had three dancelessons after work. It was so funny since I haven't been dancing since our performance.

Otherwise it has been a good day at work, we got the chance to meet one of the bosses and he treated everyone of us with lunch at Rax. So a pretty good day actually. 

That new dance style was Siéva and it was so cool. It's actually the only dance that has been founded in Finland. It was really interesting in a good way. 

Right now I'm just stressing about this autumn. Will I get a study place somewhere or will I have to work for a whole year.... I would really like to know already byt no, we'll have to wait until July. Also, Im broke right now. My payday is on Friday next week. Oh well, I'll have to cope one more week, I think I'll manage. 

Good night,

Haadi

Everything Is Just A Messy Blur

I don't really know how to think right now.. I haven't been able to think over things properly after Saturday. Everything hasn't sunk in yet. I can't believe that day came and it went by so fast. 

The only thing that is left now is my job and a.... life. With friends and dance. 

Can't wait until next week when I will be dancing again. 

I went to the movies on Tuesday. We saw the Maleficent and holy my sweet potato it was soo perfect. I just loved it. I think I'll have to watch it again. 

Now I'm going to watch Chicago Fire and then I'm off to bed!

Good night,

Haadi

Bizarre Happenings

So.. uhm... I haven't been writing since I haven't had the time or motivation to write anything. Last Monday we had our dance performance. I was ill so I felt like crap all day but I still managed to get through it. And it's always fun on stage. 

And I have had two entrance exams this week. First here at home and then in Helsinki. 

I really don't know how they went but I hope I will be studying somewhere in fall. 

Yesterday I dyed my hair at the hairdresser's. I'm kind of blond again. I'm really happy now. 

I can't believe that I'm graduating next Saturday, like where did the time go?

So surreal. I have worked my ass of for three years and now it's about to end. 

I have been looking forward to the day but now it's too close and I'm like nervous. 

But okay, I have work for the whole week so.. 

Laterss,

Haadi

Learn From Your Mistakes

Hi! Guess who is graduating in two weeks!!! Me!


So relieved.. Now I only need to get better with this freaking flu or virus. Like haven't I suffered enough already please god. I don't want to get a throat surgery.




I just want to learn how to live in the moment and not think about the past. It's like really annoying when I can't let go even though I was treated like a dumpster. Seriously where are the nice people.. I always end up hurt and then I wonder why I'm so vulnerable .. fml..
But this only makes me stronger. I can just screw that person...



AAAnd on Monday we have the dance performance! I'm so excited because this performance is really good! Like all the different dances have a good story. Can't wait! Also, the fact that this might be the last performance with my friends. It sucks when no one knows where we might be next fall. Sad but true.

There are even schoolfriends I haven't seen since March and then we just get the chance to meet on graduation day. After that everyone will go to different places to work.





Soo, a loong and big day on Monday it is.. I have the language entrance exams then.. and after that I'll have to go to the dance thing.





Good night,





Haadi

Time Goes By So Fast

Hey ya'll!

I've had a nice weekend. I visited my relatives and on Friday I got to know that the exam results will be revealed next Friday! Holy jesus if I don't get through because I have bought everything I'll need for the big day. 

More freaky is the day after tomorrow. I can't even breath properly anymore. On Tuesday morning I will get some kind of realization attack and faint or something. 

Well, I guess that's life. Omg so annoying that I have started to say that too... Thanks... man.. I have no perception of time whatsoever. I alwas think naah, I'll have enough to do that later... And then it gets closer and I'm screwed. 

Laters,




Haadi

Obsessed With Music

Hello there!

I'm feeling better now. I've been to work and now I'm having the entire weekend ahead of me. Then I do have to read tomorrow. It's getting closer and I'm not happy about it, I'm actually terrified. It's like an exam you know that is going to be really difficult and when you get it in front of you you're just like "oh, is this a joke?". So yeah, I'm going to get them creeps when I walk inside that building...

Enough said about that now, I started wondering on my way to work today.. Is there any human being in this world who doesn't like music.. Is it even possible? I mean, I listen to music everywhere. Even my hobby involves music, haha. So is there anyone out there who claims that doesn't listen to music whatsoever. I would like to meet that person and ask how it is to be isolated from the great world of rhythm and base. I have been away too long from the dancelessons. Especially when I have been ill and then I'm at home and listen to something and start to improvise and whatever. So what I'm trying to say is that after almost 9 years of dancing I listen to music in a very different way. I listen to all the sounds in the background of the song and then at some point I only listen to that ONE sound. You can't understand how disturbing it is. But okay, on the other hand, those background sounds are important for dancers because those can be a move or a pause or something else. Oh my god, before this turns into a memoir about my ,haha, dancing life, I will end it here.

I would love to have those trousers.. :)

Good night,

Haadi

Life Is Hard

Omg. I'm so stressed right now. That freaking exam is in less than a week. And I won't remember everything holy shit. On top of that exam-stress I have been ill and home for two days now. Feeling better today but yesterday was all crappy with fever that I haven't had for like 6 years (knock on wood) and suddenly yesterday was like the worst day in my life with an indescribable pain in my throat. 

So I've missed two days of work and now I feel like a shitty employee. 

So tomorrow I'll probably have a full workday which means 7½ hours. Oh jesus kill me now. Like it's not bad enough that I don't know how to do everything yet and then my employer says that I have to work the hole shift.. Telemarketer for the win.. Haha, so ironic when I thought that I'll never do that job.

The only thing I can eat right now is like soup and ice cream. What a diet. I promise you when I'm better I will eat everything delicious again.

Until later,

Haadi