Dance Like There's No Tomorrow

 time

Long time since I did this.

Last dance lesson this spring :/

hilarious nail polish :D 

I Should Be Angry But I Don't Know What To Think Anymore

What the hell, I didn't know you had feelings... Hah. Fucking pretender. 

Really. I know I'm thinking in circles and going back to the beginning like freaking 5 000 000 times but I don't know anything anymore. Is this worth even to think about or just throw everything in the pile of unnecessary people..

Then You Were So Calm And Now You're Crazy

Isn't that crazy? That some people remind you of the old. Bring back sudden memories with a few words and you think that it's 2 years ago. And those friends who doesn't go to the same school everyday, they see these changes. I wouldn't see the changes as well if I would see them everyday. You realize how much you have missed them but on the other hand, not that much. Life goes on but it's sad that I don't have that much time although she lives two or three hundred meters from here.

It reminds me of so many good memories and bad ones. I don't know if I should laugh or cry. Or be angry. I don't know. But those three years was awesome. I mean, she was and still is a really good friend. I simply don't see her that much anymore.

Like if I have been in a coma for 2 years now. It's like since I turned 15, the years have flown away so fast. I remember me then. I was an idiot. A huge dumb ass. I had a friend who turned out to be crazy since she was so weird. She always had something to come with but we were enemies in some point, I don't remember the reason why. It was something stupid. I nearly died when she became my "friend" again. After 3 years I realized that she was a weirdo cause she has changed school several times now. God knows where she's now. Maybe in Germany ahhah. Well, hope she has a great life out there somewhere. I haven't seen her for two years. Sometimes I dream about her. My brain has some kind of 2-year-old memory that keeps reminding me of her. And sometimes I want to see her, sometimes I just want to erase that face and memory of her.


This text wan't supposed to be this long, I was going to just post some music and head back to my stupid psychology shit work. -.-
Well, what are you going to do when you chose high school. ..

Fuck Fuck fuck fuck. Right now fuck everything.. School...


2,5 weeks or something like that. I'll start counting down the days now. That will depress me even more. 

My life was okay on Friday, now I just want to screw everything and I don't want to hear anything about it. I just want to get out from that freaking red building called school and start working and forget about all the shitty people there. Let those be. Let them laugh at me right have fun yeah. It happens to you too , you know. I shouldn't care, but what can you do when you're a person like me. It takes the guts out of me and chokes me. And then I find the strength to take it out on others. Which isn't a good thing.




Oh I know who's gonna love this post. :D  I feel like you have waited for it. It takes a lot for me to make me explode like this. I just can't stop writing. My fingers literally runs on the keyboard. Hahah.
Hope you enjoyed my explosion. My thoughts grows bigger and bigger for each day. Maybe you followers know that already. I store my thoughts and feelings and after a really long time I explode because I can't hold it inside anymore.
I could never think of when I have been this mad , angry and mad at myself. Because I thought it could be something. I thought it could work. All shit for nothing. F**k. Really what person says that shit to you. And then you don't even dare talk to me in public. Bull shit. Shitty shit talk. I know I say this now cause I'm so pissed. So pissed. I know how to talk. But no. Next time, I don't care who you're playing with. You have played with my feelings for so long and always pissed me off. Still, ass me has thought there was something. I'm done. You're not worth crying nor craving for.


Good night. Trying to get some sleep.




Haadi


P.S. Summer holiday soon ♥

...

oh yeah, happy mother's day! 

-.-

fml. shit. -.-

oh wait maybe I won't do that again..

wtf..

Yeyy

I like this song.


I have been in a coma this day. I have just been on the computer and then I had dance..

Everything is just like fading into a huge pile of fog.


Good night,



Haadi

Come And Get It

Like today was a awesome day!!

First quite okay day in school then P.E. lesson, which was so fun.

After that me, N and R went to a riverboat for some cold long drink. And some tasty fish n' chips. Yeah, it was just like a summer day. 

The river bank is so nice to sit at and enjoy the warmth. ♥

 Today was a day when I felt like this summer is going to be really good. And that my life is smiling. 

Today also Molly has her 18th birthday! Congrats one more time Molly! :)

Tomorrow a day off from school. I'm going to do some school things(hopefully) and then I have dance rehearsals for 2 hours. 

Demi ♥

Love her new album.

Yeah

OOOOMG.... OOMG!!!!!!

Guess what...

I got a summer job! 

Holy jesus.... Okay, I'm fine.. No I'm not. 

First time in my entire life. But I won't be at home that much..

Shit. Well, I will get money and that's the main thing. 

Haadi

soon ♥

my favorite ♥

Jag E Inte Beredd Att Gå Än

Hello. 

I am excited, happy, laughing, OMG it's going to be 20 degrees tomorrow! , I bicycled to school again, and I was just dancing after school.

A perfect day. 

Only 3 weeks and 5 days of school, but just 9 schooldays with homework. Then test week, culture day and a day out in the nature.. xD


Plus I don't have any motivation anymore, it's horrible because I want that the tests will go okay though. 

I don't get it, I'm not drunk. A million people in the place but your the one.

Laters,



Haadi

Weekend Is Over

Sundayy. Dear Sunday. I love you but the thought of tomorrow is horrible. 

I should do shitload of projects.. but what am I doing? Guess twice.

Fb.. Sometimes I don't like you.

Yesterday I went to a friends place. We talked and had so much fun!

I love all new spring music!! OMG!!


Here's a taste of my latest catch!

Jakwob ♥

Surprising Myself

I don't recognize myself anymore xD

Bought these two beauties today and yesterday.
Green top with studs and beige jacket with studs from H&M.

my graduation dress ♥

shoes for only 15€!!

Then I also bought a bra on sale and a bra today that matches my dress.

Bye,




Haadi

SHOPPING FRIDAY

Today has been a sunny and good, a really good day. I bicycled to school because it was so warm.

Then after school we went to town. Me, J, I, N, R and E ate at this heavenly Chinese restaurant.

Then we went shopping. I found a pair of shoes, a bra and a army green top with studs. (Omg, I love it)

Then I found a graduation dress for only 20 €!!! And then there is on jacket with studs which I have reserved. 

graduation dress ♥ It's supposed to be mint coloured. 

Good Night! I'll show you my new "face look" tomorrow! Can't wait!

Haadi

♥

Imagine

Dragons

♥

Talented

I was with a friend in a park on pick nick. We had fun and it was nice and warm to bicycle. 

Maybe I'll take the bike to school.. hmm..

OMG!

He's amazing.

When we can't be together it's all for the better.

Believing in love, believing in you.

Not Hangover

Oh hey. Yesterday was fun. Mostly. Parts of it could have been erased. 

I don't understand some people who talk more when they are drunk and don't dare to talk to you when you are sober. S fucking annoying but what can u do when you are a fool in love.

Sober thoughts are drunk words or how was it.. 

You keep playing with fire. Yes, I'm on fire. Fucking fuck. Jesus Christ. 

Send me to hell fine. I don't understand people. 

No doubt about it, I had fun although this load of shit. 

Have a good day!

First of May!

Hip hurrey..

Haadi

Jacket Heaven

OMG that jacket!

 :( So nice and aaah!! But the price... OMG

this is also nice :D

ehh , it fits better in my budget..

What Happened

Partying isn't that a good thing for me. At the moment. 

Today feeling like shit. Or not shit. Tired. Really really tired. We went to bed at 5. a.m. Can't deny it, that it was sooo much fun!!! Can't stop thinking about it!

Now I'm not even tired. Haha laughing. I have felt like a zombie all day. Now I want that it would be Tuesday.
God, I'm so pathetic. Just wishing it would be summer. Or no not yet. After one week. Then summer holiday. That would be so perfect. But no, instead we have 4-5 weeks left of school.





Laters,




Haadi

Living Inside A Dream

Every guy everywhere just gives me mad attention, like I'm under inspection. I always get a ten because I'm built like that.

So.. It happens tomorrow. I'm excited and thrilled. On the other hand, it will be over tomorrow. You know, they say: Everything good comes slowly.

My head is confused, since the random eye contact again. Like twice today. -.-

Nu tar vi båten till Mariehamn...

a hint to you who I'm dressing up as tomorrow.

Have a nice weekend everyone!

Cause I'm gonna have one! :D

Haadi

Till The Daylight's Fading

I don't know anything, I don't know what to do. Like I talked with a friend in 20 minutes about life.

In the middle of the road.

So freaking excited for Friday. I was more yesterday. But tomorrow, whoa I'm nearly freaking out then. On Friday I will be ..... all over the place.

OMGing around.  Okay I have been OMGing around since Monday..
And I have a speech on Friday. Juuptiduu..





A beating love within my heart, we're going up,up, up u-up





Bye for now,




Haadi

Excited as fu*k

Stop imagining.. Like wtf is happening. I'm freezing but yet I'm happy. Random feeling.

It feels like yesterday that it was Friday. And now it's 3 days till Friday. Then it will be the most awesome day ever!!!!!!! Like OMG!

I have a flu, maybe that's why I'm freezing.. Well, today was a good day although it rained. But good things happened too. I'm soo happy about the fact that school ends in about 5 weeks.

Don't hold your breath no. 

I'm beginning to feel like a drunkie, yes now I said it myself, cause I have been in the liqueur store really a lot in the past few days. 

Latersss,

Haadi

I'm Not Like The Rest

Jesus Christ..

there's no halo round my head, there's no fantasy.

mmhmm, that's true.

My Life Is A Big Fat Joke

What have I done today. Absolutely nothing it feels like. I have seen a friend. And been on Fb.

Yey. I bought a bracelet for 2 freaking €. Whoops. 

I recognized that I don't have much money. Jesus. How am I going to cope the whole summer...

I wonder , I wonder.. 

Until Laters,

Haadi 

The music

Really Awkward

Hello. This happened yesterday. I was at our school party. I drank too much and it was too strong. 

Hmm.. not a good thing. I will hear about this for a really long time.

Today I have felt like a zombie. But I still went outside so that made me feel a lot better. And now..

I have done something I will show tomorrow. 

You want a piece of me...

You Know Who I Am

I can see you staring there across the block, with a smile on your mouth and your hand on your huh.

I Gasp For Air

Gloorious. We are hot and young, we are free.

This and last weekend was really great. Okay, today was better :). I was shopping earlier today and now in the evening I saw a movie with Cecci, Hanna, and Ellen. Then we went to Subway afterwords. We "ate" for one and a half hour. Fun funn :))

I bought this phone last weekend♥

This weekend:

 A blazer I found on a flee market yesterday with I and J. Had to buy it. Then I bought a training top for only 3€ today!

And I bought a flip cover for my phone.

Haadi

Haj hajj

My head feels like mashed potatoes right now. I don't have enough motivation for this test week. Finnish culture course test tomorrow. Crap x1000....

Easter Holiday tomorrow!!!