The music

Really Awkward

Hello. This happened yesterday. I was at our school party. I drank too much and it was too strong. 

Hmm.. not a good thing. I will hear about this for a really long time.

Today I have felt like a zombie. But I still went outside so that made me feel a lot better. And now..

I have done something I will show tomorrow. 

You want a piece of me...

You Know Who I Am

I can see you staring there across the block, with a smile on your mouth and your hand on your huh.

I Gasp For Air

Gloorious. We are hot and young, we are free.

This and last weekend was really great. Okay, today was better :). I was shopping earlier today and now in the evening I saw a movie with Cecci, Hanna, and Ellen. Then we went to Subway afterwords. We "ate" for one and a half hour. Fun funn :))

I bought this phone last weekend♥

This weekend:

 A blazer I found on a flee market yesterday with I and J. Had to buy it. Then I bought a training top for only 3€ today!

And I bought a flip cover for my phone.

Haadi

Haj hajj

My head feels like mashed potatoes right now. I don't have enough motivation for this test week. Finnish culture course test tomorrow. Crap x1000....

Easter Holiday tomorrow!!!

You Left My Soul Bleeding

Oh hey. I'm going to show you some awesome things I got as present from I and J on Friday!!

Thank You so much!

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this one I bought last week from Cubus!

Then I was shopping yesterday with Jontero. And I'm in love with this pattern!

And we saw the movie: Oz the Great and Powerful. It was good actually.

not as good as I expected but still I love them!

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Take it away, remove this from me. Remove this weird memory.

Like it has existed but as an experience that will make me wiser. Learn from my mistakes.

Last week. Remove some parts of it. These are just wishes.

And how am I supposed to know if it ever was anything there?

Were I just imagining and hoping.

I think this will stay unanswered.

Make me better to understand.

It's so long since that day.

Spring will come, then summer.

Wonder if I

Learn to forget.

I can now see

what I thought could have worked.

Me being such a jerk

trying to make it as it used to be.

This is weird. 

Whatever it was.

If it even was.

Something I imagined.

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Bye for now,

Haadi

Good Tunes

cold chills goes down my spine when I listen to this song..

It's Today

School "prom"-dance today and tomorrow! Can't wait! 

Christmas Lights

It has really happened much since the last time I wrote.

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Today we had an extra school day when we had a charity bazaar. Kind of fun cause I didn't do the same thing as last year. Now I sold cakes etc..

Then to my inner thoughts..

Can't a human always control their thoughts so that you just say the things you know won't sound wrong and stupid afterwords?

Sometimes I wonder why on earth I have said something..

So unnecessary. **

 Like if I hadn't a brain that works properly, or then it's my mouth that lets everything out like it was a reflex to say something "smart" at the totally wrong moments. This must sound really random.

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Bye!

Haadi

Love Lockdown

Excited holy my. gosh. I really like this song.

Even more excited about our dance. 

Now I'm Back On My Feet

So here are the pictures from yesterday!

♥

Speechless ♥♥

can't really believe I "hugged" her..!!

Good night,

Haadi

I Envy You

Omg Didi.. She sings so gooood!!!!!!!!!

Like really good.. Amazing talent.

Hehe I got a few pictures that were good but I will show them tomorrow since the pictures won't cooperate with me tonight.

And she sang Speechless. 

So I was really pleased to see the concert and we sat on the second row. Not bad at all. 

And here's one of her songs she sang which I really liked!

(I liked all but this one I hadn't heard before)

Enjoy,

Haadi

Here We Go!

Tomorrow it's it!!! We have our first musical performance! For parents, relatives and friends. Yesterday we were in school until half past 7 in the evening rehearsing. And we had rehearsals today too and hopefully everything will work out perfectly tomorrow and on Wednesday. I'm both excited and nervous for the dances I'm in but we'll see how it goes.

Lately, I have noticed that if I'm tired in the morning I get more energy from somewhere at noon.. 

Maybe it's just me seeing my friends in school that makes me happy and energetic.

 Hmm, weird or what.

Until next time,

Haadi

New song ;)

You Wouldn't Even Talk To Me

Something weird happened today. I wasn't that nervous before my speech.. And that's so unusual because I normally feel bad and I just want to sink underground and hide..

And now I wasn't that well prepared as I used to be. Am I starting to loosen up or am I just lazy? Hah, wouldn't be surprised if it's the second option. It feels like I have been lazier than I've ever been.. Like I'm taking every project too easy. Now we have a deadline next week and I'm supposed to write a novel review and I have barely read the book. 

I'm worried about my future.. heh..

I just wish I had money right now. I want to shop. That's not a good thing I know.. But every time I'm in a clothing store I just grab everything I find fancy and then I want to test everything.. But then I can't buy much once.. Right now I just buy stuff if I really need.

Oh, well. Soon it's Christmas, then I will get some money.

om nom, soon it's time to bake gingerbreads... After 1 month or so..

Laters,







Haadi

Face It All Together

Oh My..

Keeps surprising me.. Like I never know what to expect.. 

Loreen's new album is freaking awesome. Can't even describe the feeling I get when I hear her songs.   !!!

This weekend I have been at my relatives place. There was much less snow here at home. It's always the opposite..

And I saw the newest Bond film. It was really good actually! I haven't even seen any other 007-film, I think. And I fell in love with Adele's Skyfall-song. Maybe it was because the film overall was quite good. 

New week starts tomorrow, I'm not ready no, I have a speech on Wednesday. And I'm still not sure what I have to talk about in 10 long minutes..

Hope I'll survive. (Hah)

Good night!

Haadi

You Don't Even Dare To Look At Me

Wtf seriously. One can not fail that much. Really. 

 I'm on awkward level 100 right now..
Hope I'll learn from my mistakes. 

Feeling good after today's dance lesson. Now I'm just thinking about the lyrics in the song we danced to.. Well, I'll find out next week..

And today I heard that I have an English speech next week.. Whooptidoo.. That teacher is so random.
And I don't know what topic I will choose.

I want to be a skilled nail-maker too.. 








Good night,





Haadi

Black Fluid

I.need.to.buy.one.thing.

And that must be soon. Because I can't stand this amazing shop-sprayed scent on my wrist.
It smells like heaven.
Maybe I'll do it here on my Fall Holiday.. We'll see.
The fragrance is just one of a kind. In the world. And made by the best.

Fame
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Lady Gaga

 from Accessorize ;) glitter and pearls. 




Now I'm off to my last lesson today.





Haadi

I Know What You're Thinking

I must say that something's really wrong with me when I like Justin Bieber's music. 

Well, I hope it's just a phrase.. hah.

Today I went to town with S and I bought a necklace for my "gammeldans". I hope I won't regret buying it after a couple of months. I will show pictures tomorrow.

I think fate has something to do with my everyday life. Really typical things that I wish both to happen and not to happen. I don't know if I should laugh and be surprised or be annoyed. And when outsiders don't know anything about this whole situation, it still seems to me that there is a bigger so called force that makes everything happen. Like a traction force that drags me nearer (this one particular person) and it is so random I could write an essay about it, or not. Like everyone somehow "knows" that there's something going on. I don't know. Maybe I'm in a dreamworld? And the real me is in the real world. Someone sees me all the time and controls every decision. Random philosophy..

Good night!

Haadi

I Chose To Be Happy

Feelings help me to express myself. Really much actually. 

Sharper moves and determination in what I'm doing. I mean dancing.

It's just that it must happen something so that I think differently and show my feelings. 

This should really happen before every dance performance. Although there's no one who sees what you feel when you dance. If you dance in front a huge audience.

There must be something good with dancing.. Since I have learned how to deal with my emotions.. After 7 years of dancing.. Haha.

And I've learnt that it's more fun to dance when you give at least 100% or more. (maybe 110%, at least in one of my dances we have to give that much). Then also one thing that is important. To feel the music.

Two days left of school before our Fall Break. It's going to be really nice to just take it easy and have fun with friends.

Writing more soon,

Haadi

Amazing

Sorry, Jontte but I just have to brag on this amazing singer from our neighboring country!!

LOREEN ♥

Her new song! I'm kind of hyperactive and again.. Cold shivers..

And then she has also made a remake of the song My Heart Is Refusing Me.

Love.Her.Songs.

we♥it

Yeah, and my Saturday evening was really fun with the best company! Thank you all! 

Had dance today.. We heard how much time we have left to practice until we have our performance.. It is just 7 WEEKS??! 

Shocking, but true. 

Good night,

Haadi 

Let's Party

Really awesome day yesterday. Happened everything nice and fun that possibly could happen on one day.

I met Ina, Jontte and a few other people who I haven't met for ages.

Then I found a black sweater for my school-musical dance. And an ear cuff on sale. xD

In the evening I'll go to my friend's place having a good time and party.. And dance! 

Have a great Saturday evening y'all!!

Haadi 

I'll Be Your Silver

No test today, lovely morning. 

Feeling good, I think I've found a way to be happy. Like how I make my days get better. It was yesterday I had this really strange feeling. I felt complete although I don't have everything I want.

That is how you define happiness.. hah.

Me likey this picture.!! ♥

we♥it

Bye for now,

 Haadi

I Gaze At My Face

This song!!!!!

The Finnish TV program "Dance" last week.. My oh my..

There was two dancers who danced to this song.

I could nearly see Katniss in her.. Same smooth moves.

Cold shivers down my back. Woah, haven't had those since I had Euphoria stuck in my head.

Or no, when I saw Loreen dancing. 

I should be reading to my test, heh. Got to go..

Haadi

So Let's Just Stay Awake Until We Grow Older

I want to learn how to sing perfectly... 

Found this girl from US who sings really good covers.

Holy my..

She should participate in Idols or X-factor.

Her voice sounds like a mixture between Rihanna, Kelly Clarkson, Katy Perry.

And she sings Lady Gaga's song The Edge of Glory too, so talented!

I had my second last test today. Well, I have to say.. What the poop.. Really.. I had read on the totally wrong things... I just focused on "read.the.whole.book.don't.stop." -.-'

The only thing that went okay was the essay answer.. I ended up writing 3 ½ pages.. :D

Good me.

Dance today!! Yeeaah feeling the energyy.

Haadi

I Can't Stop This Now

Freakin' excited. Looking forward to next weekend.

Today has been a really good day. I have been at home and in town. Shopping. A pair of jeans that are, guess what colour.. Dark red. Love them ♥ Then I bought the rest of my next  semester's books. 

And what comes to yesterday, I bought a nail polish. Haha. 

 But the colour is somehow sparkling, neon-ish and purple. 

I've never had a so huge Oh my god-experience thanks to a nail polish colour. 

Mavala's Purple Sensation ♥

Tomorrow I have musical rehearsals in school. And on Monday  I have the geography test..

We'll see how that goes..

Have a nice weekend,

Haadi